Fear
Lol, I just ranted to Justin. I've been ignoring him for like ages. & if he didn't tlak to me on MSN to day I doubt I would approach him la. Hehe. Im sorry to have neglected you okay? Won't do that anymore, thats a promise. Attached or not I'll still talk to you :> I realised ranting on msn trains your typing speed. LOL. I think I've never typed so fast in my whole entire life before.
Oh, mummy's result is out. SHE'S FINE. Thank god :)
I think I've been making some people around me very worried. I'm really sorry alright? I know you all meant good for me. I never did blame you all for informing my mummy etcetc. Ya, its really a wake up call for me. I can't afford to throw this chance away. I'll make sure Sky's dream come true! :>
& I came across this Hong Kong show thriller or something. It said this "Love is not about the outcome, its about the process" I guess that's what really got me thinking. I kept telling myself I couldn't let go of S, but thinking back, it was me who did all those hurtful things to him and I don't deserve him anymore. Yes, not even his friend. It was rather depressing for me to know that we could never even be friends ever again, but I guess that's karma la. I rmb what thomthom said too. You can let go of someone, its just the matter of you want to do it or not. But I realised everytime I changed bf, I will compare them to S, without fail. & nobody could be as good as him. He also said even if get back tgt, things will never be the same anymore. I think I really live up to this quote "等到失去了才懂得这么去珍惜". Well, at least now I wouldn't tear when I think of him anymore. & I guess he already has someone he likes, so I just hope the best for him. I'm not trying to be noble here but ya, he moved on. So should I.
Hey Sly, I just want you to know I'm truly sorry for the things I've done to hurt you. Thanks for giving me chances over and over again, but ya, I don't know how to treasure them. Thanks for being so patient with me. Thanks for the past 2 years. Those arguing, anger, happiness, sadness, whatever... I think without you, JC life would be such a bore. Well, I just hope that you'd find someone who knows how to appreciate you much better than me... :)
OKAYYYYYYYYY. Done with being sentimental & all. Off to study :>
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